Sunday, October 19, 2014

Why Lacking Social Skills Is Seriously the Worst

Let's be honest - I've never exactly won an award for my social skills. I've always been a quiet person and I used to be super shy and insecure...like for pretty much my whole life. I've definitely improved quite a bit from the middle school and high school stage...but sometimes I feel like I'm regressing.

Like I'm with a group of people and want to be a part of it...but I end up just listening and watching too much and not contributing enough. It's like I'm conversation dead weight that everyone else has to carry and it's very awkward.

It keeps people from getting to know me better in larger groups and prevents me from being able to make friends. And then I overcompensate elsewhere...like trying to be good at everything else because I don't have people skills which makes me even more unlikeable.

Sometimes I look back at past experiences and just think about how socially incompetent I was...about key moments where I probably hurt people or made them feel unimportant because of my lack of social skills.

Sometimes I wish I could just not be an awkward person and just be normal instead. It makes me sad when I so badly want to connect but people and can't.

So yeah...just on my mind these days.



Thursday, October 9, 2014

Words from A Person with Severe Pet Allergies

This is kind of a random post, but it's been on my mind so here's the rant -

I'm allergic to animals, like severely allergic to cats and somewhat allergic to dogs. And most of my friends have a cat, a dog, both, or multiples of both.  In fact, it's almost like it's expected that if you own a house, then duh, you need to own an animal. My argument is no, no you don't.

Here's my story --

When I go over to people's houses who have animals (a cat especially) , even if they clean/put the cat away/ I take tons of allergy medicine - I always leave sneezing, itchy eyes, puffing my inhaler and trying to not be miserable for the next 4-6 hours. Yes, it can last that long -- even if I'm over for only an hour or so, I suffer long after that. I'm not making this stuff up!

That being said, sometimes I feel like people just don't understand what I have to go through in order to make a short visit to their home. A lot of people say things to me like "we cleaned up all the hair" -- but honestly that doesn't do anything. People are allergic to the dander of animals, not their hair -- and that means it's tiny and microscopic and floating in the air and nothing can really "clean" it except a rag with water and an air purifier. In fact, cleaning before I come over might actually make it worse, because dusting and vacuuming stirs up all the dander into the air so now I'm inhaling and getting it into my eyes and everything.

Ok, I hope you are getting my point here -- having allergies sucks and I'm always having to turn down invitations to peoples homes who have animals. Don't take it the wrong way, that just the way it has to be. Its me or the cat.

So I guess I'm writing this as a public service announcement, if you are the kind of person who likes to host people, you may want to think twice about adopting an animal, especially a cat. Because the truth is, if you have an animal, allergic friends probably won't want to come over.


Ok now all the cat lovers are going to hate me.


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Saturday, September 20, 2014

Preaching Should Inspire Worship

via Jan Erik
I heard this quote recently and I've really been thinking about it. I've always had a hard time with going to a church service with a sermon...sometimes it feels like I could learn more or be more productive if I just studied the Bible on my own.

I realize the merits of "going to church" -- fellowship with other believers, corporate worship...but as for the actual sermon part...its hard. I often find that my mind wanders, I can't sit still, or I have to take detailed notes to pay attention -- and then it starts to just feel like another class or lecture.

So when I heard this quote, it really resonate with me -- sermons are not meant to stuff more information in my brain; sermons are meant to inspire worship. And because I'm listening with all the other believers and members in my church, we are worshipping together. We worship in song and then we worship in the goodness of God's word.

I'm starting to approach going to church with a different mindset -- one of worship rather than just learning. It's hard because I love to learn, but thats not the point. I want to glorify God and enjoy the stories of his faithfulness with my brothers and sisters in Christ.


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